Posts in Surrender

We hang on by the skin of our teeth.

We grasp onto whatever shred of control we think we have.

The reality is, though, that we don't have much of that. CONTROL. 

I remember that the first time I got pregnant I felt that loss of control in such a big way. I felt so vulnerable. ANYthing could happen to me, to my baby. Somehow, I knew immediately that all the variables out there--the good ones and the bad ones--were possible and that there really wasn't much I could do to control any outcome. I could do the best I could to live a healthy life so that my baby would be healthy, but really...shit happens. That created huge anxiety for me. 

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